update

ive been sick for over a month now.  First bronchitis, then strep, now its starting to feel like the flu.

I am still at a very low weight.  I dont want to trigger anyone by saying how low.

I haven't done anything or gone anywhere aside from work and my families house with a very few exceptions, in over a year.  I haven't modeled in over a year.

I am still in the same dark place and I have stopped reaching out.  I am going to go talk to a therapist as soon as i can afford it.  I hope i still have it in me to fight at this point because i feel all the will power drained out of me

All i want to do is cuddle and sleep with my kitty all of the time.  I sleep most of the day and i work very little.  It is hurting my finances badly and i wish i could get on disability.  Work is hell for me it triggers every bit of my anxiety and agoraphobia.

I am trying as hard as i can but the sickness and depression is hitting hard.

Be Well

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